Essays and reflections on inner life.
It is not just attention that runs on its own. Most of what you call your taste, your opinions, your moods, and even your decisions arrived from somewhere else and now runs by itself. Recognizing the scope of this is the first honest step in inner work.
wake up
Presence is not a state you can hold. It is an event that happens briefly, repeatedly, throughout a day — and each event leaves a real, partial freedom behind. The work is built by frequency, not duration.
wake up
The first piece named the cost of awareness; the second named the trap of forcing it. This one is the small reward — not a method for sustaining awareness, which is a long apprenticeship, but a few seconds of the thing itself, so the rest of the work has a target you have actually tasted.
wake up
Autopilot is not a moral failure or a vague modern complaint — it is a specific, observable state in which the body completes the day while attention is elsewhere. This is what it looks like up close, and how to begin noticing it without forcing presence into a thin, continuous effort.
wake up
Trying to stay aware feels like it should be easy, and isn't. The mind wanders within seconds, and most people quietly conclude they are bad at it. This piece is about why awareness has a real, measurable energetic cost — and why the slips are not failure, but the actual size of the gap inner work begins to close.
wake up
The natural response to losing awareness is to apply more effort — to clench attention the way you would grip a rope. This piece is about why that move backfires, why forcing attention is not the same as paying attention, and what soft attention actually feels like when both autopilot and the inner supervisor briefly let go.
wake up
Reaction does not arrive after decision; it arrives before it, and then dresses itself in the language of decision. The work of inner life is not to suppress reaction but to widen the gap in which choice can appear.
observe
What you call 'I' is not a single person but a rotating company of inner parts, each briefly convinced it is the whole. Recognizing this is the beginning of having an actual relationship with yourself.
observe